I wont wait till death.
I wont wait to see whats left.
I wont wait until im hurt.
I wont wait till my my name is in the dirt.
I want it right now so ima take it.
I want it so bad so im wont fake it.
And if its hard ima still face it.
And if its hard i might get naked.
No hoe. No garden tools here.
Bravery. Aint shit i fear.
I feel loved. Thats so dear.
Never afraid. Just to make that clear.
I want it and everything that comes along.
Never weak. Just heartless and strong.
Fck the original.Whats the remix to that song?
Cause what im hearin now gotta be wrong.
Its takin too long to get what i strive.
But i gotta get it before die.
Had a dream about it. && i was so fly.
Ima fiend. Why lie.
Wednesday
Tuesday
BAR
Okay so shit the last time i blogged it was about Wiz and shit is bout to be about him again. Just dropped a mixtape. Burn After Rollin. If you aint on it. Maaaaaannn i just think you should kill yourself. Its suicide. Really. Fuck 'No Ceilings'....Um sorry. I fucx with Wayne but there is no way he tops Khalifa with this. Wiz is gonna take over in about a year. I swear i give him a year. This dude is amazing and im so sick of sayin it. Naaaaww i lied, I'll never get sick of sayin it. I love that nigga. Hahahaha. Yeahhhhhhh Bitch. Alright word. Jammin 'Take Yo Bitch' as i type. && my weekend was great! fckin GREAT!
Go look up what Khalifa means.
Wiz Khalifa Hoe.
A Great Artist.
U might know him from his single. Say Yeah.
Youngin on his Grind. Star Power. Flight School. How Flyyyyyy.
Taylor Gang or shot your self in the neck hoe.
P.S. I told you i was on Wiz Arash. hahaha!
Get On This Please.
These are the rappers the world needs to get on. Yeah this mag is kinda old but wateva. Obviously not old enough cause enough ppl aint on it yet. HaHa. Kid Cudi. Wale.Curren$y. Asher Roth. Corey Gunz && Charles Hamilton are my fave. But they all are good shittttt. Wiz Khalifa should be one of them. But its ohkay. i'll make a section for him myself. He gets his own spot.
Sunday
Blinked && Missed it.
Ughhhh. So much has changed in the blink of an eye for me. I was so close to being done when my car almost flipped. Big asz truck jumped in front of me. Maybe a inch more of me doing anything else different. Would have been done. So i thank God im still breathing. && my friends that were with me.
Then i found out shockin news from one of the closest people to me. Almost lost him too but there is no way ima let that happend ever. So im just gonna be there for him. The craziest shid happends to the best people and those who dont deserve it. But ily MSM. Be strong. Your the best person in this world i swear.
I also noticed that i keep my circle really tight. Its like im so used to ppl comin in and out so im like fuc it. the circle is on lock. And somebody can be really close to gettin in. But you wont. Nobody else can. I got who i need. && cutting the rest off is not a problem for me. My heart beats slow && the last time i will cry from hurt emotions was last night. Sorry i been through the fire and back. So im too strong for the bullshid. && yeah ppl say dont let your past affect you. But its not, Its teaching me a lesson. && im still learning. And still standing. Im only human. Maybe a little super human with all this shid i been through.
Too Blessed.
Then i found out shockin news from one of the closest people to me. Almost lost him too but there is no way ima let that happend ever. So im just gonna be there for him. The craziest shid happends to the best people and those who dont deserve it. But ily MSM. Be strong. Your the best person in this world i swear.
I also noticed that i keep my circle really tight. Its like im so used to ppl comin in and out so im like fuc it. the circle is on lock. And somebody can be really close to gettin in. But you wont. Nobody else can. I got who i need. && cutting the rest off is not a problem for me. My heart beats slow && the last time i will cry from hurt emotions was last night. Sorry i been through the fire and back. So im too strong for the bullshid. && yeah ppl say dont let your past affect you. But its not, Its teaching me a lesson. && im still learning. And still standing. Im only human. Maybe a little super human with all this shid i been through.
Too Blessed.
Tuesday
Monday
Its Been Real.
People say shit gets real. Ummm no it doesnt.Its been real. You just start gettin life. Ha. Man the weak die young and the strong live on foreva. i feel like the weight of the world is constantly chillin on my shoulders. But i aint brushin it off. It can stay cause im unbreakable. I think im almost heartless. Like fareal. Ppl come to me with their problems and im def not gonna tell you what you wanna hear. Pop your favorite CD in if thats what you were hoping for. Ima tell you what you need to hear. Yo fareal. This world is a crazy place and i enjoy living in it. && you should to. So next time you decide to complain make sure you living in Kenya in some broke down shack without a bit to eat for the next week barely clothed && you raising a family with no money. then i might feel sorry for you. Diamonds gotta go through the pressure of the world on them in order to become something beautiful. U almost a diamond. Hang in there.
Sunday
Free Write.Just read it.
Damn i gotta a broken heart and i just realized it. && its not because of my relationship now.He's amazingly the shid.&& i love him.Its beacuse of other shid.Because of a mixture of shid.Lets see....I'll put how i feel in a free write.Maybe its talkin bout somebody.Or maybe not.Who knows?Just me.
Within my fingertips reach.
The grip wasnt tight enough so i let go.
Could have tried but i was tired.
And you lied.
You said you would wait but you didnt.
You didnt.
And im not surprised.
Maybe you felt a different vibe.
On a different page.
You stopped at the 2nd chapter.
I didnt know the pages would burn and not be there so i kept goin.
You said you would wait but you lied.You didnt.
Heard you picked up a new book.
So now its a different story.
I dont really like that book.
Hmmmmmm.
i tried to make you smile the other day.
You're still the same so thats nice.
Made me kinda think.
Tryna find out which path i wanna go down.
Aint got a GPS system for my destiny.
So its kinda hard to figure out where i'll end up.
Where ever it is.I hope i like it. Hope you're there.
Damn its hard not knowing if you care.
Its hard.
Its REAL hard.But that was in the last book.
Im on a new chapter.
But its missing illustration.
Its missing picture perfect.
I think its missing me and you.
A picture of me and you.Just chillin.
And my head resting on your shoulder.
Sitting on a beach at night.
Wit a blue nose pit sittin next to us.
Just Chillin.
Chillin.
Within my fingertips reach.
The grip wasnt tight enough so i let go.
Could have tried but i was tired.
And you lied.
You said you would wait but you didnt.
You didnt.
And im not surprised.
Maybe you felt a different vibe.
On a different page.
You stopped at the 2nd chapter.
I didnt know the pages would burn and not be there so i kept goin.
You said you would wait but you lied.You didnt.
Heard you picked up a new book.
So now its a different story.
I dont really like that book.
Hmmmmmm.
i tried to make you smile the other day.
You're still the same so thats nice.
Made me kinda think.
Tryna find out which path i wanna go down.
Aint got a GPS system for my destiny.
So its kinda hard to figure out where i'll end up.
Where ever it is.I hope i like it. Hope you're there.
Damn its hard not knowing if you care.
Its hard.
Its REAL hard.But that was in the last book.
Im on a new chapter.
But its missing illustration.
Its missing picture perfect.
I think its missing me and you.
A picture of me and you.Just chillin.
And my head resting on your shoulder.
Sitting on a beach at night.
Wit a blue nose pit sittin next to us.
Just Chillin.
Chillin.
Friday
Self Image.Body Image.
So if you missed it. Roxy cried on 106andPark last week. She was talkin about how she had an eating disorder when she was in high school. && when she was talkin bout it i was dead into the tv. I like really couldnt turn away. So i just decided to blog about it.
Like on some real heavy shid. Yall need to love and be comfortable with the bodies that God gave you. Im 5'7 and weigh 100 pounds.So yeah Im tall and boney. && love it. But it took me a while to learn how to deal with it and just be happy with myself. And i wasted sooooooo much time tryna change myself. So now im tellin yall to just love yaself. Everybody is different and thats what sets people apart. So do you cause nobody else can. And for niggas that always got some negetive shid to say bout somebody you need to CHHIIILLLLL. Nobody really knows what the person next to them is goin through and half the time their story can top yours. So before you say something like 'Why he wear all black?'or 'Your too skinny' or 'Those shoes are mad old.' Think about shuting the hell up before you speak. Word.
Thursday
Something like a Rising Icon.
Okay so i keep hearing people say my Keri is tryna be like Rihanna. My nigga.Why would she try to be like somebody whos beneath her talent. i aint sayin Rihanna aint talented. But she doesnt compare to Keri Hilson as an artist,songwriter or dancer. Niggas sleepin on her. These are just a few songs she wrote.
avant - 4 minutes
b5 - heartbreak
britney spears - gimme more & break the ice
ciara - ooh baby
danity kane - right now & want it
ludacris - runaway love
mary j blige - take me as i am
omarion - ice box
pussycat dolls - wait a minute & painted windows
timbaland - the way i are & scream
usher -red lisht & love in this club part II
chris brown - young love
I aint feel like writing the whole list. But look her up. I love this girl.
Sunday
Wednesday
Opposite Sex.
Okay so yeah its been a minute since i been on here to blog. But yeah. Unfortunatly I got a life. But okay so i got a topic about...
Drumrolllllllll!!!!! Boys/Men/Niggas. take your pick.
Okay so i'm really good with them. I'm great with relationships. && every relationship i had ended beautifully. && only 2 have ended so far. Yeah so thats pretty good right?
Okay ladies its not that hard keepin one. You gotta be chill and relaxed. Some girls be all down they nigga neck.Step back some, trust.
He doesnt love me.-How many times have i heard that one. If you ask him and he admits it then obviously yall not on the same level. Balance is the key to a healthy relationship.
I do everything, He does nothing.-Look 50/50 is perfect. 60/40 is not gonna work.
I dont trust him.-Hmmmmmm if you givin him your heart you betta trust somethin. If he cheated or lies alot,then trust could be slim. So if trust is slim i think you know what to do.
I cant let him go.- Are you serious?? Okay i hear this from you ppl like 18 and 17. You got your WHOLE life ahead of you. Man drop him and move on. Let it go. Why are you cryin cause its done OVER. It didnt work out because there was some type of negative flow. So eliminating the problem-BIG PLUS. Man tears are lame and weak. Good things dont last foreva. Either you break up or you die. But either way.....Its gonna end.DANG!!!
Now. People say i always find the good ones.So i dont know what its like. Niggas i have relationship problems. I just dont let the myspace world and facebook world and blog world or ANY world know what me && the Mr got goin on. But yall might wanna try to find a good guy.Bad guys can be good guys too.You just gotta know the difference between bad && WRONG. And yall must be lookin the wrong place. Girls now days look for the pretty face, the swag, the money, the car. But personally i look at the shoes[J/k but that is important.] You gotta look for the chemistry. I know right off the back if somebody is right for me. That nigga thats at the center of attention.Yeah not my type. He gets attention from everybody else.Why does he need yours. Hmmmmm Just one thing that goes through my mind when lookin for him.
&& this Mr.Right character. Has anybody met him yet????
Ummm yeah he doesn't exsist. Girls want perffect but you will find out that perfect is boring. && Mr.Right will probably end up being some over cocky dude anyway.
&& you gotta be [RIDE OR DIE] man dont listen to the rumors. they are just there to break you. If you think ya nigga doin somethin you dont like then ask him, tell him wats up, let him know who speakin bout him. If you aint gonna be 100 then there wont be any real in your relationship.
Okay thats it for now. I just had to speak on this cause shawties be actin DUMB.
Lol
Drumrolllllllll!!!!! Boys/Men/Niggas. take your pick.
Okay so i'm really good with them. I'm great with relationships. && every relationship i had ended beautifully. && only 2 have ended so far. Yeah so thats pretty good right?
Okay ladies its not that hard keepin one. You gotta be chill and relaxed. Some girls be all down they nigga neck.Step back some, trust.
He doesnt love me.-How many times have i heard that one. If you ask him and he admits it then obviously yall not on the same level. Balance is the key to a healthy relationship.
I do everything, He does nothing.-Look 50/50 is perfect. 60/40 is not gonna work.
I dont trust him.-Hmmmmmm if you givin him your heart you betta trust somethin. If he cheated or lies alot,then trust could be slim. So if trust is slim i think you know what to do.
I cant let him go.- Are you serious?? Okay i hear this from you ppl like 18 and 17. You got your WHOLE life ahead of you. Man drop him and move on. Let it go. Why are you cryin cause its done OVER. It didnt work out because there was some type of negative flow. So eliminating the problem-BIG PLUS. Man tears are lame and weak. Good things dont last foreva. Either you break up or you die. But either way.....Its gonna end.DANG!!!
Now. People say i always find the good ones.So i dont know what its like. Niggas i have relationship problems. I just dont let the myspace world and facebook world and blog world or ANY world know what me && the Mr got goin on. But yall might wanna try to find a good guy.Bad guys can be good guys too.You just gotta know the difference between bad && WRONG. And yall must be lookin the wrong place. Girls now days look for the pretty face, the swag, the money, the car. But personally i look at the shoes[J/k but that is important.] You gotta look for the chemistry. I know right off the back if somebody is right for me. That nigga thats at the center of attention.Yeah not my type. He gets attention from everybody else.Why does he need yours. Hmmmmm Just one thing that goes through my mind when lookin for him.
&& this Mr.Right character. Has anybody met him yet????
Ummm yeah he doesn't exsist. Girls want perffect but you will find out that perfect is boring. && Mr.Right will probably end up being some over cocky dude anyway.
&& you gotta be [RIDE OR DIE] man dont listen to the rumors. they are just there to break you. If you think ya nigga doin somethin you dont like then ask him, tell him wats up, let him know who speakin bout him. If you aint gonna be 100 then there wont be any real in your relationship.
Okay thats it for now. I just had to speak on this cause shawties be actin DUMB.
Lol
Saturday
Amber Rose && Kanye West.
Alright so Kanye is my Daddy. Like my REAL Daddy. No Bullshid. Lol. Sike. All bullshid. But we both rep the Chi and hol the fashion scene down && got this thing for music and are optimistic and creative and different and the best at what we do && the shid wit a crazy shoe game. But enough about me and my Daddy.Lmao! Now this new Shawty he got on his side.[Step mama] Amber Rose. She balances him out well. She got MASS appeal. Fashion game sick. If you thought a match for Kanye was imppossible, well Rose proves you wrong. This b*tch on her game. && she know what she doin. Go Head Step Mama....Hahaha! Yeaaahhhh. Look her up on google. && Catch up to this new shid. Think quick niggasssss!Rose gets it in. Ha!
Like this right.
So i just got back from my ANTM tryout. i dont know how that went. But it was a cool experience. My hopes aint to high tho. But wateva happends, happends. But the competition was HEAVVVY. Shorties was like 5'11 and shit. Not even includin the heels. Lol so not really shorties right. But i was like Damn basketball models. Lol. But yeah man. On to the next>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I need a new phone. I let my old one go off cause it was gettin kinda expensive. i dont wanna no wack new shid but it kinda wateva cause i just need to text and call and maybe some flix wont hurt. So yeah i need to get up on that on a ASAP type flow. Although not havin a phone aint hurtin to badd>>>>>>>>>>>>
&&&&&&& Now for the best shid. Im Cali comin. Yeah so its off to Cali tonight. Im so hype. Cant wait to see them tall asz palm trees and meet some cool asz people. && For the reason i'm really goin. To see my Sisterrrrrrrr.Kierraaaaaaaaaaa!!!! havn't seen her in like 13 years.Too long my nigga. Too long. Badd part. I'm dumb tight about flyin. Might pee on myself. But i got some music and food so ima try to be a G.
HAHAHAHA!!!!! Sike. Ima be a straight up pussaaayy. Aint gon' even front. But its gonna be all worth it at the end soooooo...IM DOWN!!
I need a new phone. I let my old one go off cause it was gettin kinda expensive. i dont wanna no wack new shid but it kinda wateva cause i just need to text and call and maybe some flix wont hurt. So yeah i need to get up on that on a ASAP type flow. Although not havin a phone aint hurtin to badd>>>>>>>>>>>>
&&&&&&& Now for the best shid. Im Cali comin. Yeah so its off to Cali tonight. Im so hype. Cant wait to see them tall asz palm trees and meet some cool asz people. && For the reason i'm really goin. To see my Sisterrrrrrrr.Kierraaaaaaaaaaa!!!! havn't seen her in like 13 years.Too long my nigga. Too long. Badd part. I'm dumb tight about flyin. Might pee on myself. But i got some music and food so ima try to be a G.
HAHAHAHA!!!!! Sike. Ima be a straight up pussaaayy. Aint gon' even front. But its gonna be all worth it at the end soooooo...IM DOWN!!
Thursday
Loved this Shid...Hahaha!
Call them gay if you want bet yall niggas cant do that. Them the niggas that get al the dances at the clubs. Hahahaha.
Tuesday
Thank You Micheal Jackson.
In Our Darkest Hour.In My Deepest Despair.Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?In My Trials.And My Tripulations.
Through Our Doubts and Frustrations
In My Violence.In My Turbulence.
Through My Fear And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain.
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My
-Micheal Joseph Jackson.
I dont understand why they wait till he's gone to honor him like they are doin now. When he was alive the media had nothin but bad stuff to say. Like he was worthless. Now that he's gone everybody is all hail the King. Micheal has been a legend.Like forevaaaaa. The media actin all brand new && shid.Makes me mad the love that they show now. Why couldn't he be alive to celebrate his being with us. You will be missed Micheal.&& will live on forever throughout your music.Rest in peace.
Ps.No one on the corner got a swagga like Micheal. No Duplicates.Like Ever!Point Blank Period.
Will You Be There?In My Trials.And My Tripulations.
Through Our Doubts and Frustrations
In My Violence.In My Turbulence.
Through My Fear And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain.
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My
-Micheal Joseph Jackson.
I dont understand why they wait till he's gone to honor him like they are doin now. When he was alive the media had nothin but bad stuff to say. Like he was worthless. Now that he's gone everybody is all hail the King. Micheal has been a legend.Like forevaaaaa. The media actin all brand new && shid.Makes me mad the love that they show now. Why couldn't he be alive to celebrate his being with us. You will be missed Micheal.&& will live on forever throughout your music.Rest in peace.
Ps.No one on the corner got a swagga like Micheal. No Duplicates.Like Ever!Point Blank Period.
Americas Next Top Model
So this weekend.7-11-09.Saturday. Im goin to try out for Americas Next Top Model. I be watchin the show like 'ummmmmm I can do that and betta'.Hahaha! Not cocky. I just got faith in myself. So yeah the open call is in Savannah, Ga. I know its gonna be mad ppl out there so i'm prepared for the looooonnnnnng wait. Yeah if you live close to the area you should come out too. You gotta be at 5'7 or over && 18-27 years of age. You gotta fill out this long asz application also. Go to 941thebeat.com to download the application. Also enter to win a free pass to jump the line at that site also. Wish me luck. && im sayin Good Luck to anybody who comes out.
-Cy
-Cy
karmaloop.com
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Basically.If you aint hit this site up yet in the past 2 years. You officailly aint SHID. Hahahaha! Naw im playin. But for those who aint on this site yet need to get on it.Like on some Extremely Fast type shid. Here some shid i found exquisite......
Yeah so now you should go ham with ur paycheck on the website.Ha!
Yeah so now you should go ham with ur paycheck on the website.Ha!
Monday
Kanye Directed It.
Ummmm I dont understand why this video had to be like this. I like the concept tho. Kanye West got a crazy mind.But i love it. Drake still doin his shid.
-Cy
-Cy
Im Cali Comin.
So im bout to go to cali soon. Be there from the 7/12 til 7/21. && you dont even know how high the hype level is right now.&& its too much to explain. Landin in San Francisco then headin to San Diago. Im all the way live right now. im just all in for whateva. Im goin to see my sister.Aint seen her in like 13 years. Too long right? Yeah i know. && yeah she my blood sister.Cant freakin wait.Yall dont even know.Cant wait to see Jenn && Derek. i supa remember bein hella bad wit Derek. && Fankie my sister's Dad.This is gonna be like a reunion of a lifetime.The week need to hurry and be ova.Im supa afraid to fly but its worth it. But um thats all for now and BTW if you cant see. Im new to this blog shid. But i gotta lot to say so i decided i try it.
-CY
-CY
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